December 27, 2010

What's next? from Letters to You by Chrissy

Letter to You: What's next? -
You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There will be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends.

Someone reminded me of this quote today. Is it true? Yes. But where do you go in life after something like this happens? September 2nd, 7:42 am, my whole life fell apart. We had a plan and it was working out perfectly. Now what? How in the world do you ever move on from something like this? I often wonder if I'm going to have to settle in life. Am I going to get married one day and think, "this isn't how it was supposed to be." I'm obviously going to live with this forever.

I constantly question why God put you in my life just to rip you away. Why would he do that? I'm sure there is some "bigger" picture, but I'm not seeing it. Maybe he needed you, but I swear I needed you more. I remember telling you the last time we talked how I wasn't strong. Is this to prove something? I don't understand. Actually, I probably never will. I will continue to question it. Why me? Why do I have to start over? What do I do?

I read a blog today that really struck me. Karie over at Wife of a Wounded Marine summed up this grieving thing pretty well in Grief=Bi Polar:

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