When someone close to you dies one of the immediate emotions you feel is guilt. Even if you never really did anything wrong, every little thing you could've done better plays over and over in your head.(READ MORE)
I should have kissed him longer. I should have said I love you before I hung up. I should have made him breakfast that morning. I shouldn't have gotten so angry over the milk he forgot.
The process of forgiving yourself is a complicated one. In my case I had a lot of forgiving to do. I had to not only forgive myself for the things I felt I could have done better, but I had to forgive him for the things I was angry at him for. Hell, I had to forgive him for dieing.
February 23, 2011
From **Wife of a Wounded Marine** by Karie -